The voice within

उन पलों उन लम्हों को याद करें  जब हम तुम नादान बच्चे थे  हर बात पे लड़ाई होती थी  और दांत हमारे कच्चे थे  कन्धों पे बस्ता टंगे  जब साथ साथ पढने जाते थे  और जब दिन भर झगड़ा करने पर  मम्मी की डाँट खाते थे वो घंटे भर तक खाना  और पढने से जी चुराना  लेकिन घडी में पांच बजते ही  झट से खेलने को भाग जाना   वो ख़ुशी और मासूम मुस्कान  जो तेरे चेहरे पे आती थी  जब नन्ही सी तेरी कलाई पे  'सबसे आगे' मेरी राखी सज जाती थी  कुछ लम्हा बीत गया  कुछ साल निकल गए  जाने क्यों आज लगा  हमारे 'रोल' बदल गए  तुझसे हर चिंता बांटने की अब  आदत सी है हो आई  जाने तू कब सयाना हो गया  ये बात समझ न आई  तेरा समझाना मुझको अब हर पल  और तेरी बड़ी बड़ी बातें  तेरे 'ज्ञान' भरे सब 'लेक्चर' मुझको हैरान कर जाते  तेरे मुझसे ये कुछ सवाल  मेरे लिए ये तेरी फिकर  'दीदी तू खुश तो है ना' का जवाब  मै क्या ...

 वो प्यार थोडा ज्यादा, वो लाड इक तुम्हारा  बाबुल तुझसे तो बस माँगा था, मैंने एक सहारा  फिर तू क्यूँ मुझको यूँ छोड़ गया ........... एक साथी छोटा नाटा, मौज मस्ती, सैर सपाटा   तुझसे झगडा तुझसे प्यार, कभी झप्पी कभी एक चांटा  भाई तू ऐसे मुंह मोड़ गया .......... तेरी शिक्षा तेरा ज्ञान, तुझे देती थी मैं सम्मान  छोड़ गया बिलखता राह में, फिर तू कैसा महान  गुरु की गरिमा को तू तोड़ गया .............. बनी मैं कभी तेरा वो कन्धा, जिसपे सर रखकर तू रोया  पर जब थी मुझे मदद की आस, तू था ग़ुम कहीं पे खोया  दोस्त तू भी विश्वास झकझोड़ गया ........... छोड़ा घर तेरे संग आई, तेरे नए बसेरे में  तेरे प्यार की थी चाहत, उजाला था तू अँधेरे में  पिया तू तो दिल ही तोड़ गया ........... समाज के दरिंदों ने मुझको घेरा था  उनका खिलौना बना देह मेरा था  तब दिल था रोया, तुम सबको पुकारा  सुनी न आवाज़, न दिया कोई सहारा.  एक लड़की बन दुनिया में आई  माँ क्या ये था मेरा कसूर...

As I closed my eyes to sleep; I felt like time has taken a leap. Cos when I woke up from my nap; I was in mummy's loving lap. I saw papa angry on me; saying "its already late, get up mini". Cursing young generation as he read paper; and mom all ready with milk and wafer. I took my bath half asleep half awake;  and was off to college as it crossed eight. I saw my friends waiting in parking; planning and plotting for mass bunking. Bunked the class, we went to a movie; and then a cold coffee at CCD. We were fighting, laughing and having fun; thrashing each other and then escape and run. And as I ran someone caught my hand; I turned around to see it was my friend. "Finally caught you", he exclaimed I closed my eyes as he raised his hand NO!!!! I shouted and got up and sat; and found nothing but my sleeping mat. Where did all vanish I sat thinking; and then I knew I had been just dreaming. Getting up I lo...

First word of a child the look, when he just smiles first day you send him to school and when he plays with water in pool. A 'very good' as my teacher says, morning assembly, we gathered to pray birthday songs and birthday chocolates and polishing shoes with chalks on saturdays When I'm low, a hug from friend the caring touch, I felt at hand the sideways look, a confession frank, "Dude I'm with you in this evil prank" The rest in mother's soothing laps in her arms she takes me and wraps a pat on back from my lovely father making me feel i just made him prouder. An ugly fight with younger brother and then at night, sleeping together. the concern for each other's weight, acne in face and increasing waist. In lover's arms, the cosy feeling tears he wipes, helps me in healing as if preventing me from getting stolen the care in eyes has it all proven As I sit with no work on weekend all these memories peep out of cavern some things in life that seemed s...

I had never thought, it would turn this way; with you walking off, and I in dismay. my heart broke down, ears refused to believe; those few words, that you had said to me. There was once time, when we co-existed; Siblings, more than friends, people interpreted. Your voice was enough to ring my bell; And worries fading away, like a magic spell. I knew you well and you understood me. We were together, whatever matter it would be. Those days were the best, greener than ever; I wish those days, would have lasted forever. Now time has passed and things around have changed; with you ignoring me, and I doing the same Don't know who is wrong and who stands correct; But in this world, I think, no one is perfect. I was wrong, I know and I do accept; perhaps you were too sometimes, if you look back. but never had our fights turned, as it did today; For what you said to me, I never had thought you'd say. You've got your world now and people to move along; but I am still the s...

There are some hardships and some cries, that always take us by surprise. Not knowing what to do next, we just wonder "Will this time pass by?" Cursing God for what he has done, and left options for us just none. But do we need to have that fall? Its the struggle of life after all. Climbing mountains was never easy, flying in air was never thought. Who says there were no struggles? But its the glory for which they fought. The fear inside us plays game and we bow to it, so lame!! In the fear of failure we don't see Its just myself, that's stopping me. Stopping myself to get up again, cos I fear the results to be the same. I don't see, what's changed is time it never rests as its the sublime. Any time, whether good or bad, can't prevail in life for long. for the sun setting today, will shine tomorrow when its dawn. All we need to do is see, our chance in disguise it may be. Just run along with a leap of faith, the faith, that things are going to get straigh...

This new poem of mine depicts the disappointment that gets associated with the failures in life.... My life is completely lost around me, is mist and frost. The life which once was bright is now just pale and white. Some challenges that I had to meet, some promises I needed to keep are now seeming too far away cos its my luck that has to play. I had to keep a promise I made to my mother as I once said, "Mom you'll one day be proud of me" that pride in her eyes is all I wanted to see. All I wanted is to spread my wings "I'll touch horizons" I used to think. Whom my father would look and cry "That's my daughter touching the sky". There were people all around me 'A loser' in me they see. I had a challenge to prove them wrong and break the jinx that existed so long. I wished to be a reason for them to smile those people with whom I went miles. with whom no sadness was ever allowed I just wished them to feel proud. I had reasons so many to s...