Bye bye 2009

Yet another year coming to an end…..I got one year older..one year senior. 20 long years and two and a half years of my college life is what I accomplished ….wow it feels good!!!!! But does it really???

Sitting alienated in my room during my end semester break…I was literally blased of my holidays and ‘no work at all’ state. Not very sure of what should I be doing ,I thought of analysing the very year bidding goddbye to everyone, and, what better day will I get other than today i.e the 31st of december just a few hours before the new year says hello to the world.

The year started with January ,though there wasn’t much novel ideas stored in it for we people…..because our dreams ,our aspirations had not taken a new form with the advent of the new year….this year we all desperately wanted just one thing and I think I have mentioned it more than 100 times even in my previous posts and even if not, it must be implicit from the former posts….it was bhai finding a place in one of the IIT’s ,the only new thing added was one more person we had started praying for, and that was Shikhar… bhai’s best friend who had become more of a family member for us. They two had already started forgetting days and nights or witnessing and noticing the change in weather….all they knew was their books. And I…….. I was just done with my third semester and entered fourth. Ya one thing to mention is that I got selected in the college’s training and placement cell which was considered to be quite an important group to be a part of. so +1 for this to the year 2009.

During my school life I was not very rich in terms of friends rather I sincerely lacked them….the only person whom I could think of as a friend was Ankita who is also my colege colleague now ,she is persuing her B.Tech in computer science stream. She is also one of the members of the training and placement office aka TPO. So Ankita was my schoolmate….is my college mate and now my TPO mate too…..hehehe..…sounds good doesn’t it ????????

However during these days two of my classmates became more than just classmates for me…..i got my best friends as Aakanksha and Ankit. I feel sometimes sorry for them because now when I retrospect I see them tolerating my every insane thing , every overreaction no matter how petty the thing was on which I overreacted….my agonies my ecstasies….they were around me all the time. So now I had four best friends Aakanksha ,Ankit ,Reliance and Nitrr (well the reason of including the latter two in the list was that these two everyday sent me an sms and reliance even used to call me )so they remembered me everyday just as a friend does so it would be unfair on my part to make the list without including them…..right guys ????

As the year proceeded it was exam time for all of us including me and bhai….tough time ahead…..Exams passed by as they should have been..and now it was relax time for bhai….cos their long run of two years was coming to an end and me…..lets see what happenend with me.

When the new director took her charge in our college, she made it a rule to the answer sheets to be shown to the students so that they can scrutinize the marks awarded to them….and believe me it was just a way of slaughtering us, the students, slowly and again and again as oppose to giving the result one day and killing us the very moment. And the same happened with me. In the first three subjects whose answer sheets had been shown to us, my marks were horrible….in one of them I merely passed….i had no words……. God!!!!!!!!! I desperately needed a BURKA to cover my pathetic face. Well to tell you all one thing….. my parents are great beings on this earth….highly ambitious…and I totally attribute my as well as bhai’s achievements to them….had they not been forcing and guiding us….we would not have stood where we do today….but when they see marks ebbing they are vulnerable…..so when they came to know about my marks they were like ‘Red hot’ with anger. I was given a dose of castigation every hour by them. Reprimanding me had become their hobby for the time being I thought. It really sucks me when I think of those days….my mumy one day gave me suggestion and that I would like to say it in her way ,which was ‘”Tanu tere se engineering nahi ho sakti….apni degree puri kar fir hum tere liye koi ladka dhund denge”. I was stupefied,petrified and mortified by this idea of hers… “mumy I don’t want to become a BALIKA VADHU” I wanted to say but my marks had already pursed my lips. The next day was quite a relief for me as my marks were, if not very good, not too bad too…..so the first thing I told mumy as I entered my home was “mumy mere liye ladka dhundna band kardo…mujhe lagta hai engineering ho jaegi mere se ” and that was the moment we all had a boisterous laugh after a long time.

May was the month we all had been waiting for….the JEE result on the 25th day of the month….and yesssssssssss bhai and shikhar both cleared the exam….i was so happy….I would give +∞ to this year for this very reason… I still remember I was in bhilai for my summer training but who cared to attend the training that day…I took the first bus to raipur and came back to congratulate the winners.

Bhai got Elecrical engg in IIT Roorkee and Shikhar got Mechanical engg in IIT Delhi….so papa and mumy now had two electricians in our home with both me and bhai exploring the same field. Bhai went leaving me alone over here. I had been crying at nights for him right from january thinking he’ll be leaving me and when he actally did….there was no end to our tears…. I felt as if one part of my heart is leaving me .

Anyways life went by and I learnt to live without him and that’s when I realised the importance of a friend in one’s life. My friends helped me through all this…I should admit I have been quite obsessive for my bhai right from the beginning. So for some it may be my overreaction but those who knew me, also knew that this wasn’t fake…this grief was genuine… I seriously missed my bhai.

August came and there it was the festival of brother and sister and wow…. I was some 1200 kms away from bhai…..thats when I got two more brothers Ankit and Digvijay. Digvijay one of my classmate and now my brother.In my 5th semester I also discovered a very good friend in Amrita and she became one of us…. Good to see our group expanding with Amrita being the new member.

Bhai came home in dusshera which simply meant that he wont be with us for diwali…he stayed here for 5 days and these days sublimated so fast that we could not even feel his presence properly and it was his time to go. Digvijay made bhai feel the essence of diwali away from home. Digvijay is from roorkee and bhai celebrated diwali in his house..thanx to him. He helped us a lot.

And slowly the year came to an end with some more happenings like I getting highest marks in machines subject(which I always wanted to), getting screwed marks in three subjects, shifting my further studies plan from gate to gre etc etc.

And now here it is 31st december. Some hours ,countable on fingers for the new year to knock our doors…this year showed me some blues….sometimes made my life green…gave me mirth,tears reasons to laugh ,cry and many more but one thing I always believe in is ‘Whatever God does….has some good reasons and outcomes hidden behind it’. So I should thank God for every good thing HE made happen to me and also to the people whom I mentioned of, for making this year worth writing a post for me ….. so it would be wrong to analyse and rate this year a good or a bad one.

BUT what was all this then??? Well….. may be the hiccups in my life in this year or …….. may be a novel, good and intellectual of boring my friends who read my blog and taking revenge from them as they keep pulling my leg all the year round.…..hehehe

SO WAS I SUCCESSFUL IN MY ULTERIOR MOTIVES FOLKS????????